A Changed Heart

Kim’s Journey

Technologically impaired March 4, 2012

Filed under: computers,Family,Friends,iPhone,iTunes,Prayer — Kimberly @ 8:35 pm
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Well, my laptop crashed about 3 weeks ago and I was amazed at how much I missed it.  I love information.  I love when I hear a word, or have a question about anything, there is this amazing thing called Google that I can search until my heart’s desire for that answer that satisfies my curiosity.  So, after 3 weeks I got to go buy a new laptop yesterday.  Didn’t get home until later in the evening and couldn’t wait to get it out of that box.  Caught up on my emails, facebook, pinterest, looked at a dining room table I have had my eye on for a while……….I was back in touch with the world.  All is good.  ????  Hahahahaha!  I guess I was feeling a bit tech saavy so I went to apple.com to download my iTunes.  3 hours later the box still read that there was 4 hours left and it is now 11:30 pm and church starts at 8:30 am.  I left it running and went to bed.  When I got up this morning everything was just the same as it was when I went to bed.  No iTunes on my new computer and no 0.5.1 (whatever??) on my iPhone.  Ok.  After church I decided to start the process again.  It took approximately 4 hours and it gives me a successful check mark.  The symbol comes on my phone that Sync is in Process.  THEN I get a picture of the iTunes logo at the top and the phone cord at the bottom on my iPhone.  That was all she wrote.  Dead phone, unless you like the pic of iTunes with a cord below.  True to technology form, I turn everything off and back on.  Number one rule, right?  That didn’t work.  I thought maybe the battery was low so I plugged into the wall to let charge.  No change.  I then plugged it back into my laptop and my iTunes page on the laptop shows all my apps but it does not even recognize that my phone is plugged in.  So, once again I am in withdrawal.  No iPhone.  That’s how I “talk” to my kids.  Random texts during the evening and before bedtime.  Wish me luck as I brave the AT&T store tomorrow.  That is about as painful as not having that instant gratification of knowing what is going on around me with that phone.  So, all my friends out there…………….I am still here.  Just currently technologically impaired at the moment.

 

IVF November 18, 2010

Filed under: Children,Christmas,Family,Holidays,Infertility,Prayer — Kimberly @ 10:07 pm
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Long day today and it wasn’t even me going through it, well I was but I wasn’t. My daughter has been going through the IVF process. Today she and her husband went to Nashville for the egg retrieval. The retrieved 23 eggs, which I understand is good. Now the waiting begins. She will get a phone message on the next 2 days on the growth of the embryos and they will transfer them back in her anywhere from Sunday to Tuesday – most likely Tuesday. She can have a pregnancy test on December 3. That will seem like an eternity away – kinda like waiting on Christmas when you were a child. You never thought it would get here. Keep us (yeah, me too) in your prayers and hopefully we will be like little kids on Christmas morning when we get exactly what we want.

 

Parenthood September 28, 2010

Filed under: Children,Family,Infertility,Prayer — Kimberly @ 8:34 pm

That is the name of a current television show and I enjoy watching it, but it makes me stop and think. We take that for granted. Parenthood. We think that we get married, we will have babies, raise them and life will be wonderful. There are difficult times at all ages of your life. When your kids are little, when your kids are teenagers, when they become adults. One time isn’t easier than the other – just depends on how you handle it when it comes. There are many young couples who don’t have children by their choice, but just as many who don’t have children because they can’t. So many people think that because a couple does not have children that they are being selfish and the statements “when are you gonna have kids” or “your biological clock is ticking” or “when are you gonna settle down” can sting to the bone when the couple is struggling with infertility. It makes me stop and think of all the times I have said that to someone jokingly. Now I am seeing it from a different light. My daughter and her husband have struggled with this for 5 years. Every month she is heart-broken all over again. Every month I am heart-broken for her. For me, it just happened. I had a daughter and a son, really without any struggle or wait. I can’t tell her that I understand what she is feeling, because I don’t. I feel so helpless. I can’t make it happen, go away, or fix it. All I can do is pray. So the next time you are around a young couple, think before you ask them why they don’t have kids yet. Sometimes they just can’t. Keep my daughter and son-in-law in your prayers as they start the tedious steps of IVF. Pray that it will work for them. Pray that if it doesn’t I will be able to comfort my daughter. Pray for me.

 

July 2010 July 5, 2010

Filed under: Faith,Family,Friends,Patio,Prayer,Proudness,Religion — Kimberly @ 9:58 pm

My husband and I both work too much.  That is a given.  On a given day I will get home about 5:30 and he will get home about 6:00.  I have supper going and we normally eat around 6:30 while watching Who Wants To Be A Millionaire?  Then one by one we go put our plates in the sink and one by one we each pick up our laptops and he begins to put in more hours and then I do the same.  It helps me stay semi-caught up because there is always some small “fire” to put out when I get there.  Freddie probably worked close to 70 hours last week, he is a salaried employee, no we are not rolling in that time and a half pay.  Somewhere in all that about once a month he has been working on a patio i designed and hopefully we can complete by 2011.  I have helped put down stone and marked stone where they needed to be cut.  I have hammered dents into stone so it wouldn’t have a flat line cut mark.  But in the end, we can look at each other and say this is a job well done.  We can have the pride you get when you finish a project that you put your heart in to.  Think of that here on earth and think how you feel when someone compliments your work…………..now think how much more to hear the words “Well done my good and faithful servant”.  I want to hear that from God.  How cool would that be?  So in the 8-5 job remember that we are here to exalt God and enlarge God’s family.  The person people see of you today at work could be the closest thing to Jesus they will ever know.  I know that like you, I want to hear that Well done, Kim, my good and faithful servant.  Go out and serve your God today!

 

December December 1, 2008

Filed under: Children,Faith,Family,Friends,Holidays — Kimberly @ 7:35 pm
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Can you believe it is December?  Man, where did this year go?  I came home from work sick today, but brought work home with me.  I am loving this new technology (well, new for me)  I can log in to my work computer from my laptop and still get stuff accomplished while in my sweats on my couch.  Kinda defeats the purpose of sick time, but at least I don’t get as stressed thinking I am getting behind at work.  Back to my original thought.  December.  I have not done any Christmas shopping (well, I went once but only found stuff for me), I do not have my tree up, and haven’t done any holiday baking.  I am not even singing in the cantata at church this year, so I have no excuses.  Where does the time go?  I love to bake and take homemade goods to friends, but we have my husband’s work dinner this weekend, he is also in the church drama the following weekend and then we have the weekend before Christmas which is when my brother will be here.  Whew.  Baking may have to take a backseat this year.  What are your Christmas traditions?  Baking, caroling, family time, church.  You will find as your children get older that you have to be flexible to those traditions.  When I first married we had it all down pat.  My grandmother’s and my parents on Christmas Eve, our house and his mom’s on Christmas day, his grandmother on the 26th for supper.  Now we try to go with the flow……..our grandparents are now gone……..my brother now has a small child and they go back to Missouri before Christmas day……my daughter has her husband’s family to work in…..traditions become less important than time together.  I treasure the time together.  Well, maybe “traditions” is not the right word, maybe routine is what I mean.  We still know that Jesus IS the reason and are thankful for Him, that is our tradition.  Our routines must change.

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Maybe I could just print this picture and hang it in my living room!!

 

Merry-go-round November 22, 2008

Filed under: Faith,Family,Life,Prayer,Stress — Kimberly @ 7:16 pm
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You know how it goes…you have been there too.  Everything around you is spinning faster than you can keep up with it.  You work and work and keep getting further behind.  This one wants this…that one wants that…you are being pulled from all directions.  You meet yourself coming and going.  Which way do you go?  What do you do?   I too often try to be all things to all people and sometimes it is just overwhelming….the merry-go-round of life.  I just want to jump off this ride for a while.  But that can’t happen.  Work lady, wife lady, mom lady, church lady…which one wins out this week?  I brought home a stack of work from the office for the weekend, if I do that, the house won’t get cleaned, if i clean, my office work won’t be done.  If I do my Bible study, work AND house stuff isn’t done.  What do you do to be successful at all of those?  I need to be more Mary than Martha.  Sit at the feet of Jesus, but then that means work doesn’t get done….and that puts me on the merry-go-round again.  Whew…..anyone dizzy besides me?

 

27 November 15, 2008

Filed under: Children,Family,Golf — Kimberly @ 9:37 pm
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So hard to believe.  My youngest will be 27 tomorrow, don’t blink ladies…it goes way too fast.  It seems like yesterday he was graduating from pre-school in his white pants and plaid jacket reciting his “I Want to be a Banker”.  His blonde hair in a mullet (haha – he hates that picture!)  Or was it yesterday I was sitting at the Greenville Park Ampitheatre watching him get his first t-ball award, or maybe the Little League game he made an unassisted triple play.   Wait, maybe it was 6th grade graduation when I took 30 pictures of him in his new suit and wire-rimmed glasses (oh wait, no film in the camera).  Oh…I remember…it was the first high school golf match when the golf bag was bigger than him and he beat all the guys twice his size.  It was just yesterday he was pitching a no-hitter or winning that regional game, or was I watching him receive his All-State award from golf pro Russ Cochran.  Oh…. I think it was yesterday he graduated high school – top of his class.  No wait, my memory is better now, he is playing in College Golf Nationals in Albequerque NM (5th place) or Palm Coast FL and getting that college regional win.  Oh, there he is coaching the local high school baseball team.  No, I remember now, it was Monday night  and he was coaching basketball with his first teaching position.  Blink.  Blink.  All I know is that all these seem like yesterday.  I have been through 7 different graduations, 4 sports, umpteen awards, girlfriends and breakups, and I love him more every day and everything seems like it went by way too quick.  Cherish your little ones because before you know it they will be 27 too!  Here are pictures of our dinner tonight.  My beautiful daughter and my son.  We came in 3 cars and at the end of the dinner went 3 different ways.  I miss all the days that seemed like they were just yesterday.  Blink..blink..there went more time.

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