A Changed Heart

Kim’s Journey

Trifecta March 5, 2012

Filed under: Children,computers,Friends,Fun — Kimberly @ 7:00 pm
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So excited. I tripled the number of times my blog was read today! I had 3 instead of the usual 1. WooHoo. Thank you to all 3 of you!


Technologically impaired March 4, 2012

Filed under: computers,Family,Friends,iPhone,iTunes,Prayer — Kimberly @ 8:35 pm
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Well, my laptop crashed about 3 weeks ago and I was amazed at how much I missed it.  I love information.  I love when I hear a word, or have a question about anything, there is this amazing thing called Google that I can search until my heart’s desire for that answer that satisfies my curiosity.  So, after 3 weeks I got to go buy a new laptop yesterday.  Didn’t get home until later in the evening and couldn’t wait to get it out of that box.  Caught up on my emails, facebook, pinterest, looked at a dining room table I have had my eye on for a while……….I was back in touch with the world.  All is good.  ????  Hahahahaha!  I guess I was feeling a bit tech saavy so I went to apple.com to download my iTunes.  3 hours later the box still read that there was 4 hours left and it is now 11:30 pm and church starts at 8:30 am.  I left it running and went to bed.  When I got up this morning everything was just the same as it was when I went to bed.  No iTunes on my new computer and no 0.5.1 (whatever??) on my iPhone.  Ok.  After church I decided to start the process again.  It took approximately 4 hours and it gives me a successful check mark.  The symbol comes on my phone that Sync is in Process.  THEN I get a picture of the iTunes logo at the top and the phone cord at the bottom on my iPhone.  That was all she wrote.  Dead phone, unless you like the pic of iTunes with a cord below.  True to technology form, I turn everything off and back on.  Number one rule, right?  That didn’t work.  I thought maybe the battery was low so I plugged into the wall to let charge.  No change.  I then plugged it back into my laptop and my iTunes page on the laptop shows all my apps but it does not even recognize that my phone is plugged in.  So, once again I am in withdrawal.  No iPhone.  That’s how I “talk” to my kids.  Random texts during the evening and before bedtime.  Wish me luck as I brave the AT&T store tomorrow.  That is about as painful as not having that instant gratification of knowing what is going on around me with that phone.  So, all my friends out there…………….I am still here.  Just currently technologically impaired at the moment.


Where did the year go?? November 30, 2011

Filed under: Prayer — Kimberly @ 9:45 pm
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I haven’t been on here for so long nothing looks the same, not sure if I have the time to figure it out.

This is Day 1 of my daughter’s second IVF attempt. Actually this time it is called FET or Frozen Embryo Tranfer. I would like all prayer warriors to add her to your prayers.


Sunday afternoon – Winter January 16, 2011

Filed under: Prayer — Kimberly @ 4:34 pm

Well, another Sunday afternoon in the dreary winter.  I really don’t like winter.  Cold weather.  Dreary days.  I really do think I have that seasonal affective disorder.  I long for warm temperatures, longer days, and SUNSHINE.  There was a baby shower at church this afternoon.  I should have gone, but it just is SO hard.  It is not that I am not happy for the couple, I just want it to be my daughter too.  When our kids hurt, we hurt.  It is so hard to put on a happy face and go to yet another baby shower and hear yet another “in God’s time”.  But I know I am blessed.  Blessed beyond measure but I still have to ask God why??

Jesus knows me.  This I love.


Post Transfer……..and Counting November 27, 2010

Filed under: Children,Holidays,Infertility,Prayer,Stress — Kimberly @ 11:13 am
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My daughter had 2 embryos transferred on Tuesday, November 23. They were able to freeze 7 of the remaining eggs. She had to have 2 days of bedrest following the procedure. She continues to get the PIO injections daily and at this point because she is so tiny she is getting bruises on her bruises. BUT, she will be able to take a pregnancy test on Friday, December 3…….so we are just in a countdown at this point. Also pray for both of us – a menopausal mother with a hormonal daughter….whew….what a combination. 7 days


IVF November 18, 2010

Filed under: Children,Christmas,Family,Holidays,Infertility,Prayer — Kimberly @ 10:07 pm
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Long day today and it wasn’t even me going through it, well I was but I wasn’t. My daughter has been going through the IVF process. Today she and her husband went to Nashville for the egg retrieval. The retrieved 23 eggs, which I understand is good. Now the waiting begins. She will get a phone message on the next 2 days on the growth of the embryos and they will transfer them back in her anywhere from Sunday to Tuesday – most likely Tuesday. She can have a pregnancy test on December 3. That will seem like an eternity away – kinda like waiting on Christmas when you were a child. You never thought it would get here. Keep us (yeah, me too) in your prayers and hopefully we will be like little kids on Christmas morning when we get exactly what we want.


Parenthood September 28, 2010

Filed under: Children,Family,Infertility,Prayer — Kimberly @ 8:34 pm

That is the name of a current television show and I enjoy watching it, but it makes me stop and think. We take that for granted. Parenthood. We think that we get married, we will have babies, raise them and life will be wonderful. There are difficult times at all ages of your life. When your kids are little, when your kids are teenagers, when they become adults. One time isn’t easier than the other – just depends on how you handle it when it comes. There are many young couples who don’t have children by their choice, but just as many who don’t have children because they can’t. So many people think that because a couple does not have children that they are being selfish and the statements “when are you gonna have kids” or “your biological clock is ticking” or “when are you gonna settle down” can sting to the bone when the couple is struggling with infertility. It makes me stop and think of all the times I have said that to someone jokingly. Now I am seeing it from a different light. My daughter and her husband have struggled with this for 5 years. Every month she is heart-broken all over again. Every month I am heart-broken for her. For me, it just happened. I had a daughter and a son, really without any struggle or wait. I can’t tell her that I understand what she is feeling, because I don’t. I feel so helpless. I can’t make it happen, go away, or fix it. All I can do is pray. So the next time you are around a young couple, think before you ask them why they don’t have kids yet. Sometimes they just can’t. Keep my daughter and son-in-law in your prayers as they start the tedious steps of IVF. Pray that it will work for them. Pray that if it doesn’t I will be able to comfort my daughter. Pray for me.