A Changed Heart

Where did the year go??

Kimberly — Thu, 01 Dec 2011 03:45:56 +0000

I haven’t been on here for so long nothing looks the same, not sure if I have the time to figure it out.

This is Day 1 of my daughter’s second IVF attempt. Actually this time it is called FET or Frozen Embryo Tranfer. I would like all prayer warriors to add her to your prayers.

Sunday afternoon – Winter

Kimberly — Sun, 16 Jan 2011 22:34:06 +0000

Well, another Sunday afternoon in the dreary winter. I really don’t like winter. Cold weather. Dreary days. I really do think I have that seasonal affective disorder. I long for warm temperatures, longer days, and SUNSHINE. There was a baby shower at church this afternoon. I should have gone, but it just is SO hard. It is not that I am not happy for the couple, I just want it to be my daughter too. When our kids hurt, we hurt. It is so hard to put on a happy face and go to yet another baby shower and hear yet another “in God’s time”. But I know I am blessed. Blessed beyond measure but I still have to ask God why??

Jesus knows me. This I love.

Post Transfer……..and Counting

Kimberly — Sat, 27 Nov 2010 17:13:08 +0000

My daughter had 2 embryos transferred on Tuesday, November 23. They were able to freeze 7 of the remaining eggs. She had to have 2 days of bedrest following the procedure. She continues to get the PIO injections daily and at this point because she is so tiny she is getting bruises on her bruises. BUT, she will be able to take a pregnancy test on Friday, December 3…….so we are just in a countdown at this point. Also pray for both of us – a menopausal mother with a hormonal daughter….whew….what a combination. 7 days

IVF

Kimberly — Fri, 19 Nov 2010 04:07:16 +0000

Long day today and it wasn’t even me going through it, well I was but I wasn’t. My daughter has been going through the IVF process. Today she and her husband went to Nashville for the egg retrieval. The retrieved 23 eggs, which I understand is good. Now the waiting begins. She will get a phone message on the next 2 days on the growth of the embryos and they will transfer them back in her anywhere from Sunday to Tuesday – most likely Tuesday. She can have a pregnancy test on December 3. That will seem like an eternity away – kinda like waiting on Christmas when you were a child. You never thought it would get here. Keep us (yeah, me too) in your prayers and hopefully we will be like little kids on Christmas morning when we get exactly what we want.

Parenthood

Kimberly — Wed, 29 Sep 2010 02:34:58 +0000

That is the name of a current television show and I enjoy watching it, but it makes me stop and think. We take that for granted. Parenthood. We think that we get married, we will have babies, raise them and life will be wonderful. There are difficult times at all ages of your life. When your kids are little, when your kids are teenagers, when they become adults. One time isn’t easier than the other – just depends on how you handle it when it comes. There are many young couples who don’t have children by their choice, but just as many who don’t have children because they can’t. So many people think that because a couple does not have children that they are being selfish and the statements “when are you gonna have kids” or “your biological clock is ticking” or “when are you gonna settle down” can sting to the bone when the couple is struggling with infertility. It makes me stop and think of all the times I have said that to someone jokingly. Now I am seeing it from a different light. My daughter and her husband have struggled with this for 5 years. Every month she is heart-broken all over again. Every month I am heart-broken for her. For me, it just happened. I had a daughter and a son, really without any struggle or wait. I can’t tell her that I understand what she is feeling, because I don’t. I feel so helpless. I can’t make it happen, go away, or fix it. All I can do is pray. So the next time you are around a young couple, think before you ask them why they don’t have kids yet. Sometimes they just can’t. Keep my daughter and son-in-law in your prayers as they start the tedious steps of IVF. Pray that it will work for them. Pray that if it doesn’t I will be able to comfort my daughter. Pray for me.

July 2010

Kimberly — Tue, 06 Jul 2010 03:58:28 +0000

My husband and I both work too much. That is a given. On a given day I will get home about 5:30 and he will get home about 6:00. I have supper going and we normally eat around 6:30 while watching Who Wants To Be A Millionaire? Then one by one we go put our plates in the sink and one by one we each pick up our laptops and he begins to put in more hours and then I do the same. It helps me stay semi-caught up because there is always some small “fire” to put out when I get there. Freddie probably worked close to 70 hours last week, he is a salaried employee, no we are not rolling in that time and a half pay. Somewhere in all that about once a month he has been working on a patio i designed and hopefully we can complete by 2011. I have helped put down stone and marked stone where they needed to be cut. I have hammered dents into stone so it wouldn’t have a flat line cut mark. But in the end, we can look at each other and say this is a job well done. We can have the pride you get when you finish a project that you put your heart in to. Think of that here on earth and think how you feel when someone compliments your work…………..now think how much more to hear the words “Well done my good and faithful servant”. I want to hear that from God. How cool would that be? So in the 8-5 job remember that we are here to exalt God and enlarge God’s family. The person people see of you today at work could be the closest thing to Jesus they will ever know. I know that like you, I want to hear that Well done, Kim, my good and faithful servant. Go out and serve your God today!

Direction

Kimberly — Mon, 22 Feb 2010 04:05:58 +0000

Do you ever just not know where you are going? What you are gonna do? Which way to turn? That is where God comes in for you. He knows the groans of our heart…when we don’t know what to pray. The hard part for us is just letting him have that full control. We give it to him….we take it back, etc. etc. etc. Everything in the Bible is true, he will provide. Lord, help my unbelief!

Snowday, Monday

Kimberly — Tue, 16 Feb 2010 03:24:26 +0000

Well I’ve never been a fan of cold weather, and I will have to say I have had my fill of it this season – it’s not anywhere close to the ice storm of last year, but it seems like every other day we are getting snow. The road are clear tonight, but we got another inch last night. To quote many people on the internet, “Al Gore, where is all that global warming”. I guess in Canada right now. The Olympics are on tonight and they have had to postpone or delay some competitions because of condition of the track or slopes. Let’s send Canada our snow!!

I love sports. Athletic competitions of all kinds. Freddie and I got to go see UK play Arkansas a few weeks ago. 16th row behind the bench. I loved every minute of it! I get swept up in the emotion of the athletes too. Does anyone else’s eyes tear up and get a lump in their throat when scores are being announced or national anthems (of any country) are being played for the athlete. LOVE IT!!

Loved the Pebble Beach Golf Tournament this past weekend. My son played golf in high school with JB Holmes. Love to follow JB’s tournaments. Just a sports nut I guess.

Hope you had a good Monday.

Happy Valentine’s Day

Kimberly — Sat, 13 Feb 2010 16:28:39 +0000

I finally remembered my password and downloaded wordpress on this laptop, and goodness……….it has almost been one year. how time flies when you are having fun. i’m gonna have to relearn all this!!

it is valentine’s day weekend. freddie and lori and clint are in the cast of Desperadoes and Desserts. Opening night was a success. I could never get up in front of people and do that, I get nervous enough just watching them, but they make me proud!!

Hope everyone has a good weekend!

How time flies……

Kimberly — Wed, 01 Apr 2009 22:37:32 +0000

wow, i haven’t been on here for so long i forgot my password. been so wrapped up in my own stuff, unaware of everyone else. i’m sorry. i am catching up on you tonight.